First Month

I weighed in at 193 this morning! That's really great since I havn't been at this weight for quite some time [except last week when I lost 4 lbs after not loosing any the previous week]. For the past two years I havn't been keeping track of my weight but now that I am it scares me to think of how much I could have gained! Now that I'm monitoring myself and being better about working out and all that it's fun to eat healthy and go to the gym.

Today I'm working on two projects: 1) my lesson for tomorrow's sunday school and 2) my conference paper for my 295 english class on George Herbert. Both of these things need to be done today or I pretty much fail. Above all else, I hate failing.

Knowing that this month I lost a total of 6.6 lbs. will keep me motivated to getting my work done because only after I finish can I go to the gym. It's still embarrassing that I'm so heavy, but it's something I'm working on. Next month I WILL LOOSE 8 LBS if not more and by February 26 will weigh 184 lbs. I know I can do this. I have to. I will. 184 lbs baby! How pathetic that I still have so much to loose... I have to though or I'll have to pay my mom another $30 bucks because she lost 8 lbs this month and I didn't! grr

gym gym gym gym. cardio cardio cardio cardio. muscle muscle muscle muscle. 184 184 184 184.

Man of my Dreams

What do I do when the perfect guy for me is not the man of my dreams? Even after I've dreamed about him (only once and it was so unexpected that the dream really doesn't matter)? He's wonderful though, don't misunderstand. He's practically perfect in every way: fan of running, works at the MTC, plays basketball really well, likes my singing, loves his family and is one of the kindest men I've ever known. I love hugging him and he lets me hug him whenever I feel like it - I like that too. So why doesn't it feel right to like him? Why do I feel myself holding back? He's not my ideal man but he's FANTASTIC and I tell him all the time.

Home Libraries

I don't know how long I could keep up a perfectly white room like this but it looks so peaceful and calm! I'm sure if I had a library like this one I would look forward to being productive just for a reason to sit in here.

I love how cozy this room is. It's not too bright but just happy enough to inspire some quality service projects.

I'd use this room to have company over to talk about our favorite books and how we can help the children do better school (I don't have kids, but by the time I'm able afford a library like this one I'm sure I'll have some running around). =D

I'll pick this set up for my country cottage in Ireland when I move there.

I think I love this room most of all. The ladder reminds me of Bell in her favorite book store. It's colorful and modern but quiet and jazzy. It looks like a place kids would build forts in; a place where I'd go to relax, listen to my music and get my reading done. After building my own fort of course.

Idaho

A fairly large caravan of college students are driving up to Boise this afternoon to 1) be with Chad for his mission farewell talk and 2) get away for the weekend. In addition to packing for my 3 day weekend (friday night, saturday day and sunday day) which starts at 3:15, we have a cleaning check at 3:00. My job is to clean the bathroom and I'd really rather not clean the bathroom. It's by far my least favorite chore. My clothes need to be hung and the other set need to go into the dryer, I need to take a nap, get showered and ready for the day, and lastly, probably most important to the safety of myself in this apartment, I need to clean that bathroom!

1) drink water

2) move my laundry over

3) clean half of the bathroom

4) hang up my clothes

5) pick laundry up

6) clean other half of bathroom

7) pack bag

8) shower and get ready

9) nap, maybe, and leave for IDAHO!!

luf mug

i really do have the best roommates.

they bought me this mug from anthropologie and surprised me on sunday!

i had no idea.

just goes to show that the people you spend your time with know you.

i love them so much!

im grateful to have them in my life and to be part of theirs.

what would i do without them?

the Challenge

Last week I lost 2.4 lbs! hooray for me! This week's goal is to lose 2 lbs again, more if possible, and to go to bed by 10:30. I'm doing well at not eating past 9:00 pm. I just got home from my second spin class which was just as tough, if not more sweaty, as the first time and I can not wait for Wednesday when I get to do it again! On my list of things to do tomorrow is laundry. I can't work out as much as I am without clean sports bras and shorts... t-shirts I definitely have enough of though.

I went to the grocery store this afternoon and bought a ton of yogurt, some greens, turkey, whole grain granola bars and some apples. I don't even like apples. Oh, and at the gym they gave me 4 single serving boxes of multi-grain cheerios! If you

don't like them I'm not quite sure what's wrong with you. They are divine. It's like General Mills has created this super-human breakfast food that can be eaten at any time of the day and it satisfies your belly. Breakfast, of course, a late lunch if you are in a hurry, or a deliciously sweet desert! Can you tell I love these cheerios? They really do bring cheer to my life.

What a coincidence that the gym I love also gives me the food I love! That's a quality work out place if I've ever been to one.

Cycling!!

OK!! cycling is my new favorite thing!! i just got home from my first class ever and it was great! i stink more than usual, have sweat seeping through my entire shirt, can barely sit/stand/walk and feel wonderful! its nice to have a new exercise that keeps me guessing. when we first started though, i thought, "ok, how hard can cycling really be?" boy, was i wrong! it was tough! i have an entirely new appreciation for Lance Armstrong and his ability to win multiple tour de france races. what an amazing accomplishment! you go lance! my legs hurt, my arms hurt, my shoulders hurt, my back hurts, my abs hurt, my booty hurts... its going to be a restful night thats for sure! thank goodness my mom got me that mattress pad thing that i wanted so badly! now i just need to shower so my body can stop smelling like a man.

I LOVE CYCLING!!

home

im leaving in exactly 47 minutes to go back to my other home in provo. i still need to pack and im starving. i was going to get ready and put my face on and all that but i cant. i miss matt. i have no one to impress anymore. at least ill see him again in 4 months. and ill be thin. thats good. i love my family and wish i could be with them longer but its good for me to go back to school and be productive. i had a dream last night that i was trying to become Executive VP for BYUSA.... it was horrible! i knew i didnt want to do it because i was going on a mission. it was like i was trying to do everything when in reality i couldnt do it all; nor did i want to. it was weird.

im going on a mission.

im also going to be late if i dont pack up all my stuff!

p-town, here i come! =D

Chocolate

Happy first day of the year! My New Year's Resolution this time around is to not eat chocolate. Completely crazy, I know. I'm also doing a weight loss challenge with my mother. Every Saturday I will weigh myself and the goal is to loose about 2 lbs a week. At the end of each month we will compare our weight loss and whoever wins gets a reward paid by the other person! Today is the first day and my starting weight is 200 lbs (gross, I know). By the month of April I will have lost 37 lbs-ish and be at 163 lbs and, hopefully, totally toned. It's a lofty and attainable goal. Impossible is nothing!

my last bite of the good stuff for 365 days!