Life, English Lit. & Football

i really do enjoy my life despite what im about to write about. its so good to me. i have wonderful friends, a beautiful family and good music to get me through the day. i can sing and i like to smile which also helps me cope when things dont go exactly like i want them to. i have an english 251 paper due on friday which, in all honesty, wont be that hard but id much rather not do it. for 251 i have to read a lot before class on mon/wed/fri at 9 am and lately weve had a ton of readings online. the sad part is that my microsoft word is down currently ans ive failed to do my readings. our first english test for 293 is on friday or saturday and i havnt even looked at the review sheet yet. i hear its just a ton of dates and things to remember; blehh.

on saturday the presidency is invited to sit in the president's box for the football game and we each get to bring a guest. i wanted ot invite my new friend roger (who love, loves elder holland) but after he said yes to going with me he called back because he wanted to be honest about something. he's kind of dating this girl and doesnt feel like he should be going out with me to the game.
i was wayyyyy bummed because i could really like this guy but i was glad he was blunt about his feelings. now im taking my friend david who is a freshman at wyview and he was way excited to go. i like how hes so open about his opinion which is a delightful breath of fresh air. its kind of weird that hes younger but i like hanging out with him so itll be fun regardless. and he dresses nice which is also fun. i was thinking about inviting scott but i recently found out he asked mary on a date (which is so unbelievably fine with me) and decided not to.
i want to take someone who i can just be chill with and as much as i like scott i dont like being with a guy who is probably thinking about someone else. especially if that someone is my friend and is in the room with us. hes my husband but not my b/f. i mostly just liked liking him more than i really liked him. he got me thinking about the atonement though and because of him i want to learn more about it and better apply it to my life.
man, i really wanted roger to come. =/ life goes on.

ooh also!!! im teaching the sunday school lesson this week! its my new calling. i love it but its another thing i have to worry about! urrgg. so:

thursday: study for eng 293 test and have all that reading done!!
friday: turn in paper for eng 251 after writing it with brittany
fiday/saturday: study and take eng 293 test in JFSB testing lab (its on a computer, cool!)
saturday: dress up and go to football game with david and the presidency
sunday: give lesson about old testament in sunday school after prepping it on saturday night



ah, i just realized why i am strangely attracted to my friend david! i miss matty a TON...their both blond and about the same age and speak their mind. david kind of replaces matt in my life, sort of.

"for i dearly love to laugh"

I am extremely tired. The first devotional is tomorrow and I need to wake up early and hit the gym and get a bunch of reading done for my Thursday class but I felt a need to express my thoughts; hence the blog entry at 1:11 am.

I was having a pretty out of sorts day on Saturday and since I wasnt sure who exactly to vent to I decided to write Kirt a letter and let him have my stress. After the letter writing/venting I read a passage of scripture he suggested to me (DC 122) and amid a few tears and after silent prayer I felt completely better. Today I read his email for the week (I recently asked his mother to send them to me) and he included one of my favorite stories! It's about the two frogs and one just drowns in that silly milk but the other swims around till it turns to butter and he hops out! The moral is this: don't give up. He explained that he had never read or heard of this story before but absolutely loves it. Elder Haynie continued to write about how it reminds him of Joseph Smith's time spent in Liberty Jail and how even when times are tough if we just keep swimming all will be well in the end. How beautiful that even before I sent him my letter he was helping me relax. What a good person he is!

I have 9 too many letters to write to my friends serving in the field but I am way overdue on catching them up on the world. BSU won over Virginia State tonight and I went to a house party in Orem to watch it with some people from my ward. Kennedy and Ashley Carr were there too and it was lovely to catch up with them. It's been too long and even though we're all family we hardly ever see each other... I love my family and I love my ward and I love my friends and my birthday is in 5 days!! crazzyyy!! I'll be twenty!!!! Holy Cow!

Well that is all dearest blog of mine and whoever happens to stumble upon it =] Goodnight.